Are you a person of integrity? Can people take you at your word? If you can answer, I am, then folks know that your ‘Yes’ means ‘Yes,’ and our ‘No,’ means ‘No.’
Jesus makes it clear that our yes is enough to satisfy a binding requirement. It’s the same with a vow – a vow doesn’t need an oath. If we do not mean it, if we hold on to “except when” or “unless” or “until it’s not working or it doesn’t fulfill me – then I’m out of here’ – that’s perjury, a false oath. We vow with “no strings attached.”
As vowed Benedictines what do we do to insure we are truly life-long learners – committed to a perpetual pursuit of growth in the monastic way of life? What do we do to increase our familiarity with the Rule of Benedict? How deeply do we delve into Scripture to realize new, fuller meaning of God’s Word? What do I hear today that somehow I never heard before?
Do we strive to enlarge the understanding of our vows? If instance, the application of our vow of obedience? Has our observance of obedience matured beyond a childish fear of a parent finding out we took an extra cookie? Or a beginner’s strict adherence to every regulation to please the novice director? Do I worry that the whole community is watching me that day and night? What does obedience mean to us? What is legitimate authority? In a spirit of mutual obedience do we conscientiously seek input from each other? Do I give a request serious consideration or was my “Yes, Sister” simply pro forma? Do I give a half-hearted acquiescence to a request as merely a suggestion? Or was that a call of the Spirit in my life to follow or not as I choose? How distressing it can be to have someone say “yes” – pretend she’s going to obey – but then never perform the deed or show by her every comment to others and her body language that she detests the suggestion or group decision?
What if the group makes a decision I don’t like – do I have any obligation to follow it if I voted against it? Here’s the authentic test question: how closely does our behavior mirror Benedict’s “deference to one another?” To keep our “yes” a “yes” takes much prayer, honest introspection, willingness to open our hearts to new meanings and a spirit of grounded integrity. Otherwise, our vows, a couple’s marriage bonds, are not worth the piece of paper they are written on.
This is where our vow of stability comes into play. With our vow we are publicly professing responsibility to work on fidelity to our covenant with God and our commitment to one another. That takes an awareness of what is going on inside of ourselves, and a responsibility for how we might be contributing to the building up or destruction of a bond into which we’ve entered. Remember: if you are not part of the solution, you are part of the problem.
In this Gospel reading Jesus is talking about a lifetime pursuit of a way of living, in which our integrity isn’t just a matter of external conformity, but an internal way of life. There’s that sticky vow of conversion of life. This calls for strength and integrity, an inner discipline, an awareness of and acknowledgement of what makes us tick. Our words should simply be our bond, and mean what we say.
When we say yes, you should speak it with enough conviction that there’s no doubt. When you say no, mean it. If you sometimes say yes with your lips when your heart is thinking NO WAY! People will pick up on that. When in my heart I say NO, but my lips say yes…that’s deceit, it’s a lie. My tongue speaks what my heart isn’t feeling. I’m lying to myself and to another person. If I solemnly say “I promise I’m telling you the truth,” does that mean that sometimes I’m not telling the truth?
One of the angels in the Book of Revelation tells us: I know what you have done; I know that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! But because you are neither, I am going to spit you out of my mouth! “
Ultimately our relationships with other people are inseparable from our relationship to God; and it is the love of God that binds all in all. It is God’s love that teaches us about relatedness, about truth, about personal integrity. Heed Jesus’ words: Let your YES be YES and your NO be NO!
From the archives of S Roberta Bailey, O.S.B.
Ideas gleaned from a variety of sources
~Reflection by Sister Roberta Bailey, OSB






